This is truly a challenge. I've always been one to journal. That was safe. This is WAY out there! This is public, but at the same time, I am journaling. I don't see your faces. I don't see the involuntary facial expressions as you react to what you've read. This makes it safe for me. This allows me to be candid and pretend that it's just me sitting here. At least until you post comments.
I am not a writer. Just a babbler, so please, no critiques on my grammar or use of punctuation. This is just an outlet.
Who am I? I'm a 43 year old stay at home mom raising a blended family of five teenage boys and trying to enjoy my still-new marriage to my husband. Talk about a challenge! In addition to dealing with day to day teenage angst, we are building a home based business. Scary, right? Yeah, I think so. Especially when the marriage is so new. Not only does building a business shove a mirror in your face, exposing all of your strengths and weaknesses, but it does the same for your relationship. I knew this going in, but I really feel in my heart of hearts that no matter what, we will both be the better for it. After surviving a failed marriage already, your perspective tends to change and you realize that the sun really does come out the next morning even when you think your world is falling apart. What does that mean? It means that you know that no matter how the shit hits the fan, you will still be alive to talk about it the next day.
What is happening in my life that is worth blogging about? I suppose the answer to that is subjective! Here's MY answer...The Challenge. The challenges surrounding The Challenge. Yeah. That's my answer.
What is The Challenge? Well, the official Challenge is the next 90 days. 90 Days to achieve a goal. My goal is to lose 10 pounds using the products of our home based business. It's not my first challenge. It's my third. The first one ended up with me fitting into my size 4s after living for months in my size 8s. The second challenge saw me hitting the gym more days than not. Not much weight lost, maybe 5 pounds, but inches came off. This challenge I want to lose 10 pounds. Period. Nothing too exciting, but it's big. Trust me. Any woman that has struggled with those 10 pounds that leave just to come back knows exactly what I'm talking about. Any woman that watches television or reads magazines knows how important those 10 pounds are. Believe me. The media says it so it must be true. (anyone notice the sarcasm?)
I plan on using this blog to help me cope with the ups and downs of these 10 pounds as I try ever so hard to kick them in the ass and send them packing if not for good, for a very long time. I wont just be blogging about weight. I will be blogging about my family, my relationship, my voices in my head and everything else that surrounds me and pisses me off and makes me cry and keeps me going. If this doesn't interest you, you may want to stop reading now and get to the next big thing around the corner or on the next click of your mouse. If you are like me, if you can relate, if you want to realize that you are not alone in the struggles of your challenge, then please stay with me. I need help. I need something to hold on to. It wont always be pretty, but it will always be real. It will be a blog about weight, second marriages, blended families, teenagers, growing old, staying young, doing something to improve yourself, depression, triumphs and successes.
This has been a long time coming. It's been something that I have played back and forth in my head to try decide if I really want to put it all out there this way. Well, I've decided. I hope that you will continue to follow me so that it's worth more than just an outlet for me. You following gives it worth. Real worth.
There will be pictures, video, (can I do video here??) and other things to keep you from getting bored.
Join me??
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